Archive for August, 2009

On the move for the last time…

Ok I’m fed up with the limitations on wordpress when it’s hosted with them so I’ve moved my blog over to here:

Please pop by and say hi and let me know what you think to the new look!!

Needing to vent… be warned!!

Thought I’d better warn anyone not wanting to hear my rantings before I start.

It’s been a rough couple of months. I’m super relieved SENZ is over but since then Joshie has become a demon, I’ve been really sick with a never-ending headcold and generally things just could be better. Yep I know it’s just a rough patch, but sitting in the middle of it all gets a little overwhelming at times.

We’re having issues with Joshie, I’m not sure if he’s just playing up because he knows that Lucas is on the way or whether it’s the testosterone burst they get at this age but he’s been playing up something chronic. He’s just been SO naughty, yelling in my face while he’s holding my arms, saying no to everything, throwing his stuff around, tantrums and generally being a little S*&T. At a time when I’m really wishing this pregnancy was over and am needing him to be good, he’s being the complete opposite.

Aside from this he’s still not eating properly, he’s so fussy and has a fit if there’s anything new on his plate but I’m persisting with trying to introduce him to vegetables (he wouldn’t know what one was despite my best efforts). It’s so disheartening. On top of that we also have an issue with the toilet training. He’ll do No. 1’s in there no problem at all, but try and get him to do a No. 2 and he’ll whinge and say he can’t, it’s too hard and that he doesn’t need to. 5 mins later he’s done it in his underpants – the other day he even went to hide in the bathroom while he did it! I’m at my wits end and have reverted to pull ups in an attempt to show him that’s he’s being a baby by not using the toilet. It doesn’t matter how I approach it he just won’t even try.

There’s nothing wrong with Joshie, he’s just a very pedantic, hard-core kind of kid that does things his own way and always has. I just don’t know what to do next. I feel like the worst mother on the planet to have an almost 4 year old kid that won’t eat anything but chicken nuggets (he’s ok with breakfast and lunch but dinner is completely limited) and refuses to leave the nappies behind. He’s a kid that still gets up in the morning and wants his teddy, pillow, blanket (must be in that order) and a drink of milk… We’ve tried humouring him thinking he’ll grow out of it. We’ve tried being strict and dealing with the tantrums. We’ve tried coercing him with bribes. We’ve tried punishments like losing toys and time outs. NOTHING is working.

Is it just because Lucas is on the way? Will it change when he sees Lucas in nappies and eating better than he does? I so hope it does. We’ve talked to Joshie about being a big brother and showing Lucas how to be a big boy. We’ve tried stepping back about Lucas arriving thinking he was playing up because of feeling pressured to be a big boy. What do we do? I just don’t know. I’ve read the books. I’ve watch the Politically Incorrect Parenting Show but although I love it and it’s full of great advice, so much of it just doesn’t apply to a kiddo like Joshie. Normal ways of doing things just don’t seem to be working. All I can think of to do is carry on with the discipline and trying to encourage him to eat new things and use the toilet, and hope he decides he needs to be a big boy when he sees Lucas in nappies and eating baby food.

I’ve recently resigned from my position on the Rasberry Design Team as well. The products are lovely and it’s a great team to be a part of but with only 5 weeks to go before Lucas I needed to step back so I can concentrate on stuff that I can do from the house instead of having to go down to the office. I’ve pretty much moved all my work up onto my laptop now (thank you so much mum!) so at least I can work a little more comfortably now.

I’m back for another round of blood/urine tests tomorrow too. I’ve been really sick for the last 10 days with a horrible headcold I’ve not been able to take anything for and ended up with a trace of protein with my last midwife test. I suspect it’s the antibiotics I’ve been on (the only thing I could take as I also ended up with a respiratory infection) that affected the result but my blood pressure was up a little (no idea WHY Joshie… I say with sarcasm) but of course they’re all signs of pre-eclampsia. I’m not thinking there’ll be anything turn up in tests but it’s better to be safe than sorry. I also have to get another growth scan this week which I’m looking forward to, it’ll be nice to get a good look at Lucas before he makes his debut.

Other than all this I’m sooo over this pregnancy. The headcold has made it harder but Lucas is a busy wee fella and I’ve been so uncomfortable that I’ve not slept properly in months. He kicks a lot (nice and reassuring) but my hips are so sore all the time that I’m just done with it all. If I ever think of doing this again just shoot me.

The house is also getting me down, we’ve been living in a semi-renovated, tiny house now for almost 5 years and I hate it. I mean it could be worse but I just feel like we’re never going to get it finished so we can get out of here. And with the housing market like it is we’re stuck for now anyway. What I want to know is who I have to sleep with to get a house makeover… seriously thinking I should run my own telethon…

Ok… venting over… it’s pretty much all out. Of course there’s always more I could bitch about but now I’m just feeling like a big whinger and hate feeling so negative. I should be excited (which I am) but it’s all just a bit on top of me at the moment. All this and I feel like the goodyear blimp. Most pregnant women have gorgeous hair and glowing skin, I get hormone spots, greasy folicles and am generally at my most unattractive. I’m grateful that Lucas is ok, that Joshie is healthy (despite the fact I want to kill him right now) and that I only have a few weeks to go. With Mum and Dad in Cairns at the moment I’m totally grateful for the break I get on Kindy days.

On a lighter note I’ve just had my first layout published in Digital Artist Magazine, it was this one:

spring layout

Nice to see something different of mine in print (or in digi anyway). I’ve also been working on a new kit for Eidou and am loving how it’s coming out. Sales in the digi industry have slowed down as much as they have in the traditional scrapping industry and I’m wondering where to head next with the business. I’ve put in so much work in the past year and have a great group of people together on the site, but it’s just gone very quiet out there. I have a couple of ideas I want to implement as soon as I get chance but it’s disheartening. Serves me right for starting it up at the beginning of a recession (which hadn’t hit here when I did it)…

Oh well, on the upside we’ve upgraded our modem to a wireless router so I can surf at the same time as Steve and from anywhere in the house without cables everywhere – sweet! Some things are looking up anyway! LOL

Ok, so apologies for the venting (but you were warned), but sometimes you just gotta get it out. Roll on Spring. I’m ready for the sun, for playing with Joshie on the deck, for the end of being cooped up pregnant with a bored almost-4-year-old.

L x

Waiting for everything…

Ok so I’m sick, really sick. In fact sicker than I’ve been in a looooong time and I’m so over it. Being almost 8 months pregnant means I can’t take anything for the worst headcold ever… and it sucks. After last weekend with a sick Joshie it was inevitable that I’d get it too, and now of course Steve is coming down with it as well. I’m on antibiotics for a respiratory infection but that’s the limit of what I can take so I’m sitting here with a sore, tomato-red nose (as if I didn’t feel attractive enough right now) that won’t stop running and trying not to cough as I’ve pulled the muscles in my back by, well… trying not to cough. AAah the joys…

My main worry when I started coming down with it was Lucas, so I went to the doctor’s early to make sure it wasn’t the dreaded piggy flu. Bit of a worry that one… especially with me being on immunity-suppressants. I’m first in the priority-line for Tamiflu if I got it but there’s still been a disproportionate amount of pregnant women (with underlying medical conditions) die so it’s something I’m very aware of. I’m just grateful I only have around 6 weeks to go.

We’re pretty much ready for the little guy to arrive, his bed is all made up now and other than picking up some nappies etc with the shopping and packing a bag or two we’re there. This is the cot I bought from TM, it’s had some touch up work but I love how it came out – mostly due to the gorgeous bedding my wonderful mother indulged me in! This set (from BabyCity) came out just after I’d bought Joshie’s cot set and I soooo wished I gotten it then, but then when we found out we were having another boy so we had an excuse… I just love, love, love it. I’ve been visiting it, just looking at it and getting excited for when we’ll have another little guy sleeping here. I wish we’d gotten the room decorated for his arrival but whatever… I could crawl into it myself it looks so cozy…


Lucas is a busy wee boy, very active (which is especially reassuring when I’m feeling like I do!) but seems to be in a bit of a routine timewise as to when he’s quiet – hopefully this routine will continue once he’s born!

Last weekend, we took Joshie to a birthday party at McDonald’s in Glenfield for one of his kindy friends’ 3rd birthdays. He was so excited to give Matthew his present (which he’d chosen) and had a great time, which is good as he got sick the next day.


Joshie’s turning 4 in October and we have a party booked at Lollipops. I prepaid the full amount (thinking I didn’t want to worry about it on the day) and 3 days later they went into liquidation. I’ve been onto the Franchise Manager and apparently they’re currently undergoing a revamp with a new manager and should be open in the next few weeks. They’d better or we’re out almost $240 as we also have a concession card we’d paid for (and used only once) and will be without a party for Josh. What hacks me off most is that the previous owner took our money knowing damned well they were about to shut their doors and do a runner. I’m keeping an eye on things and just waiting to see how they pan out… otherwise I’ll be back on the phone with the Franchise Manager!

I’ve been busy with Up2Scrap work this week and am really looking forward to the next issue! I’m also working on some final touches to some work with the lovely Rasberry stuff, keep your eye on the DT blog for that!

I’ve also been doing stuff for Eidou – including new AI and SVG files for people with electronic cutting machines. There’s even a free file for you to download to check it out! If you have a cricut then there’s some software called Sure Cuts A Lot that I’d recommend you purchase for your machine, it allows you to use SVG files and means an end to expensive cartridges!!

Ok, back to my bed now… thanks for all your kind well wishes on Facebook!

L 🙂